Solution for my life-long riddle
Ever since starting my new work, it has been like that my energy has not been kicking on after getting home. My mind is not easily put together to finish my tasks beyond unavoidable duties while I’m in need of a bit of recompense for my arduous work I’ve done.
It’s so easy to fall in a trap of doing what’s extrinsic to my goal when I get home. I often deviate from what I supposed to do in the first place. Today, I started off my day with a solid determination to be more focused on my work but ended up scrolling down my phone in bed. This is an infernal pattern of negligence that I failed in being liberated from since long ago.
The solution I’ve found is analyzing failure. It may sound ridiculous at first, but the purpose is to prevent the same blunder from happening again. Despite my endless endeavor, I’ve kept falling into the trap of repeating the same behavior and being stuck in an inchoate state of improvement. Then, what if I analyze my repetitive pattern of failure? I caught a hint from the lines in the book Tiny Habit : to postulate oneself as an objective of a study and ameliorate the result by trying different methods until it works. The pith and marrow of this process is not to judge oneself. When a judgement disturbs the process, it’s easy to be stranded at current status. Make sure that our purpose is not to adjudicate the act but to divert it to amore useful channel.
So I wrote down my act of failure and dissect its detailed elements. What was the reason for it to happen? What did I do when I’m unraveled? How can I do differently next? It became clear after jotting down the repetitive complexion of failure which enabled me to keep an emotional distance from it and do mere analysis for a solution. While doing it, I tried not to make it as a ludicrous ambition overextending my capacity. If I can not keep it, it will result in naught of effect.
And then, on one day when I became a total couch potato, I tried one solution I came up in failure analyzing, ‘make my to-do list even smaller’. For instance, I planned the task of setting my career goal. I changed it to ‘decide what figure I want to get in the next salary negotiation.’ It was easy enough that I finished it in 10 mins. But after crossing it off my todo list, paltry motivation came out of somewhere in my mind and made me to proceed with other tasks left behind. That day, I managed to finish the entire tasks due to switching those to easy and simple ones.
This experience inspired me to steer my perspective of failure from ‘something shameful and feel guilty of’ to ‘a prove of malfunctioning and needs changing’. It got right to the point which leads me to improvements. By not evading but keeping my heads on encountering failure, I discovered the key to success.
While I’m still in the repetitive pattern of failure, I know how to rein in it. I’ll carry this analysis as long as there’s failure in my life, expecting I’m going to do it throughout the entire of my life. That being said, I’m not afraid of failure anymore. If anything, I’m looking forward to changes I can bring in to my life with failure analysis.
